Thursday, April 28, 2016

Lets Be Kind!

Good morning!

I have a very special challenge for each and every one of you to complete. This week has been super stressful and challenging for me. I want to turn my week around, and give it another chance to be great! If you're in a similar position as me, lets do this together! 

Today lets go completely out of our way to do something kind for somebody else. Whether it's simply stopping someone to compliment them on their outfit, holding the door open for the person behind you, donating to a charity, or paying for their coffee! There are so many endless opportunities to be nice to others. 

If you choose to accept my challenge make sure to let me know by tagging me on social media, or sending me a text! 

I hope you all have an incredible Thursday!

Love always,
Michaela 

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Women In The World: 1

The Good morning everyone!

I hope you’re all having a great start to your Tuesday morning. Today’s blog post is so fun! There are tons of amazing women that I have crossed paths with over the years that have incredible stories to tell. Each and every one of the women I’ve interviewed today has such amazing qualities, strength, being the first that comes to mind. I cannot wait for you all to get to know them little by little!





Seijah Drake:



Age: 22
Location: Boston, MA
Occupation and dream job: Student and political speechwriter.

1. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live, and why? 

Short-term, Italy for the food and weather, long term Washington D.C. for my career/ambitions... Or Texas for my values and the low taxes

2. Must-read book? Les Miserables

3. A movie director just called you and asked if they could film a movie all about your life, which actress would you choose to be you? 

Hmm...Teyonah Parris?

4. Number one thing on your bucket list? 

It's a tie between riding in a hot air balloon and being invited to the State of the Union.

5. Name two material things you could not live without: 

My iPhone and my eos lip balm.

Social media:
theprettypatriot.com
Instagram: theprettypatriot
Twitter: patriotpretty

Emily Jillson:


Age: 22 years old
Location: New Salem, MA
Occupation and dream job: Right now I work at Johnsons Farm restaurant in Orange MA. It's a small family owned restaurant. It's such a beautiful place and the people I work with have became family. In the summer I also work at Anne's Dairy drive inn. There I cook and scoop ice cream. It's a fun side job I like to do to pass time by. My dream job... Hmm... I honestly am not quite sure; I'm still trying to figure out what I am going to do. But I love to travel and would love to do something that is connected with that.

1. Starbucks order?

My absolute FAVORITE Starbucks order is the Caramel Brulee Latte. But they only have it around Christmas time so I always try the new lattes they have. I'm seriously obsessed with Starbucks though lol. I will drive to Hadley, which is a sold 30-40 minutes from my house just for my fix.

2. Two jobs you have always wanted to try, and why?

Two jobs that I have always wanted to try... One would be a flight attendant. I love to travel and I'm a people person so I feel that doing so would give me the opportunity to see new places in the world and meet new people and still make money. The other would be to work for Ellen DeGeneres crew. I love Ellen and think that anyone who works for her has such a fun time. Like imagine being the person that scares her guest!? That would be so funny. It would be such a fun experience. Also because Ellen is such a generous person to her viewers and gets to interview basically everyone.

3. Favorite ice cream?

Working at an ice cream place I get to try a lot of ice creams. My top favorite is and has always been moose tracks but I also love cotton candy ice cream.

4. If you could interview anyone alive or dead who would it be, and why?

If I could interview anyone.... Hmm... Currently I am OBSESSED with Thomas Rhett and his wife Lauren. I am very fascinated and honestly in love w the love they have for each other. I would love to personally hear about their love story and get to know one another. I feel that they are both such kind-hearted people who do so much for the world. Especially Lauren, she's a nurse who travels to different countries that need medical assistance and does her part to help. Someone who has so much money yet still does things like that is truly amazing.

5. Lets talk about one experience that has changed your outlook on life for the better?

One experience that has changed my outlook on life for the better....  That's a hard one. I think that the most recent event that has happened to me was my boyfriend leaving for the Army. He left in October for boot camp and now is at AIT training in TX. Being away from someone who is such a huge part of my life is extremely hard. Recently I was able to go visit him for a weekend and it was the most amazing feeling in the world to finally see him again after almost 3.5 months. But since I've come back home I find myself so upset and sad some days. Saying bye to him again was the hardest thing. The time I've spent apart from Joe has made me realize how special he truly is to me. And when I am able to see him I am so grateful for the time I get. This experience has made me a very patient person, I was always so used to constant communication and having him live 10mins away. Now having him in a different time zone, when he can only talk to me at certain times and what not it made me become a mature person when it comes to things. I don't take things for granted, and appreciate all that comes my way. Being an army girlfriend has its ups and downs. But at the end of the day I am just so much more thankful than I've ever been.

Social Media:
My Instagram is @emilyjillson I love my Instagram because I feel that my life is posted in the pictures I capture. I absolutely love to take pictures of anything. You can also add me on Facebook, I don't usually do anything on it. I'm also down for new Fitbit friends who love to challenge, I'm very competitive and I enjoy doing the workweek challenges and what not!


Bizzy Sweeney:


Age: 17
Location: Northfield/Gill, MA
Occupation and dream job: Pediatric oncologist or surgeon.

1. What’s your favorite day of the week and why?

Friday because they always seem to vary in terms of what I'm doing, and it's an afternoon/night of definite freedom from long weeks of school!

2. Sunrises or sunsets?

Sunrises. Fresh new start, fresh air, and pure bliss.

3.What’s one song you could listen to over and over again without getting tired of hearing it?

I Hope You Dance. Although it makes me cry every time due to it being my sister Jesse's graduation song from high school, it brings back memories and reminds me of how wonderful my sister was.

4. Favorite quote:
Oh my gosh I can't pick a favorite quote. So I'll give a few!

"We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it's easier. Sometimes we find our own way out. But regardless, always, we are found."

"No matter what he does, every person on earth plays a central role in the history of the world. And normally he doesn't know it."

"When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too."

5. Lets talk about one person who has completely changed your life for the better:

My sister, Kelly. I can honestly say I would not be as strong and independent as I am today if she weren’t around to push and encourage me each day. When we were younger, we wouldn't be able to be in the same room without fighting. But as we've gotten older, we've become so similar, but also different in special, unique ways. She has taught me everything from what outfits match and look good, to whom I am and how to get through the day when all I want to do is stay in bed and cry forever. She truly has helped shape the person I am today and I couldn't be more thankful for her.

Social Media:
Instagram: sweeneybiz
Facebook: Bizzy Sweeney
And as of right now I don't have a Twitter but I might pull it up again in the future: @BizzySweeney
Snapchat: bizzy.13

Chelsey Oplanik:


Age: I'm 19 years old
Location: I attend and live at Wellesley College during the school year and at home in Greenfield, MA during the summer.
Occupation and dream job: I'm currently a full time student athlete, but I plan on working in public health eventually-specifically global health. I really want to reach people that others push aside, and provide adequate medical care for them. If I could drop absolutely everything right now though, my dream job would be a travel/food journalist who could travel all over the world, meet new people, try new things and then share my experiences through my writing.

1. What’s your favorite meal at the moment?

I have been spoiled my whole life since my dad is a chef, so anything that he makes for sure! But at school overnight oats are my absolute favorite (oats, Greek yogurt, protein powder, cinnamon, blueberries, peanut butter).

2. What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done?

Ask any of my friends, I'm always the last one to want to do anything just plain out crazy.

3. Favorite place you’ve traveled to?

Almost a year ago today I went to France and it was incredible. Choosing which city I liked the most is tough but I think Nice wins, it was right on the Mediterranean.

4. Who’s the one person that no matter what situation you’re in can always put a smile on your face?

Wow this is hard. I have so many incredible people in my life that always know how to cheer me up but my mom is and always has been the one who can make me feel the most at peace. Being away from home has made me appreciate her warmth and love even more.

5. What is the best advice anyone has ever given you? 

Never take life too seriously (which I have a strong tendency to do, but I'm getting there)

Social Media:
Twitter: opalenikchelsey
Instagram/Snapchat: chelseyopalenik
I have also been working on a blog but stay tuned.

Thank you so much for reading! 

Love always,
Michaela 

Friday, April 22, 2016

A letter to my 15 year old self.

Hi sweet girl.

I know you're going through a lot right now, but there are some things I need you to know.

Mom and Dad really do have your best interest in their minds all the time. No matter how many times you tell them how much you hate them, wish they would leave you alone, and get out of your life, they will always love you. Isn't it funny how you take your anger out on the people you love the most? You'll get really angry at them when they do everything in their power to help you get back on your feet. Try to remember that you are their little girl and they just want you to be happy, safe, and loved unconditionally.

Your body is your temple. Please stop harming it. Stop cutting your skin, those scars will be forever tattooed on your skin. Stop telling your mom she's crazy for trying to talk to you about your eating disorder because even though you continue to look her straight in the eyes and deny that you have a problem, later down the road you are going to wish you asked for help when you had the chance. The chart on the walls of your doctors office is just a piece of paper, and you need to stop giving it so much power. It's okay to eat and enjoy your food without feeling guilty. Who the heck cares if you gain a little bit of weight over the holidays? You are absolutely beautiful just the way you are.

The boy you're "in love with"is just playing games with your heart and mind. I know that you're trying to give him everything you have but draining yourself to love him is only going to hurt you even more in the long run. Things are going to end, but things will be okay. Little boys don't know what they want. They don't know how special you are. Wait for somebody who looks at you like you put the sun in the sky. Someone who will drop everything to put a smile on your face, wait for your best friend. I promise that you will find your person.

Your sisters are going to be your best friends. From time to time you're going to get really angry at them but try and remember that they're struggling too. In five years down the road they're going to be your favorite people in the entire world. Try and be kinder to them.

I promise you that even though you feel like the world has turned its back on you, you are going to make it through. You are going to be okay.

Love always,
Your 21 year old self





Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Adrianna's Summer Fashion Must-haves!

Hello Lovelies!

My name is Adrianna, and I am super excited to be here on my new friend Michaela's blog! Over the last few weeks I have gotten the opportunity to get to know this wonderful human, and I have a feeling our friendship will only grow. We are both very into fashion, beauty, and have a love for sharing the things we are passionate about! 

At the beginning of every spring I start to get super excited about all of the cute clothes I can finally wear now that the weather is starting to warm up! I start to really think about the style I'm going to be rocking this summer, and I start to look for some new pieces to add to my wardrobe. This summer I decided I'm going to get back to the basics, literally. I have been so into the plain over sized tanks and t- shirts this season.  I also like to spice things up with a fun pattern here and there, and of course adding jewelry, a cute bag, or shades gives any look a little extra something. I have put together a few outfits that I think everyone could easily achieve, and also all of these clothes are so comfortable (the most important part in my opinion).

Look #1
This first look is so simple.
The white tank I got from Abercrombie and Fitch for $15.00, The skinny jeans are from Hollister for $25.00, the shades are from Old Navy for $12.00, and the bag I got from a second hand shop for $50.00, The flip flop are from Charlotte Russe for $5.00! Because this is literally just a white flowy tank and jeans you could add any type of bag or sunglasses and really customize look to be your own.





  
Look #2
The second look brings a little pattern to my wardrobe, and I am obsessed over it! The tank is from Old Navy $19.95, and The jeans are Hollister $25.00, Flip flops are Charlotte Russe for $5.00. This look would be perfect wear to a barbecue or an outdoor party! The tank is light and airy, and the pattern makes it fun and flirty.



Look #3
The third look is another very simple outfit. The tank is from Abercrombie and Fitch for $15.00, the jeans are from Abercrombie and Fitch for $38.00, and the flip flops are Charlotte Russe for $5.00.





Look #4

This is the most comfortable outfit of them all! The t-shirt is from Old Navy for $12.00, the shorts (high waisted) are from American Eagle $40.00, the shades are from Charlotte Russe for $10.00, and the clutch is Kate Spade second hand for $40.00.




Thank you Adrianna for sharing your incredible sense of style not only with myself, but all of my amazing viewers! I cannot wait to go shopping, and find similar pieces for my summer wardrobe! You can find Adrianna here. Her Instagram, and Twitter is: adddrianna … Go send her some love, and let her know that I sent you! 

Have a fabulous night. 
Love always, 
Adrianna and Michaela 

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Wanderlust with Haleigh!


Hi, I'm Haleigh and I have a bad case of wanderlust. It probably really started as a child with various trips around New England that slowly graduated to a big family trip to Florida, then a smaller trip to Arizona, a sixteenth birthday cruise to Canada, finally my first trip 'alone' with my best friend (just she and I) to Colorado and then I really made it out of the country to Mexico by eighteen. 
And here I am now in my apartment in Limerick, Ireland with a bunch of women I met just three months ago. I turn twenty in two months and I am making moves on my college major. What a huge change from the life I was living back in December. I was in Italy at the beginning of the month and by the first tick of the clock in May I will have flown to London and Germany and back.

You are probably wondering by now 'How could you possibly afford this as a full time student?' Good question, I scraped together a few thousand by working a ton over the summer and right up to the weekend I left for the University of Limerick. Yeah, I am studying abroad at the University of Limerick in Ireland. My apartment is right on the Shannon river and a fifteen minute walk to my furthest class. And the best part is it is paid for by much of my regular school payments. 
'Home school' has a different meaning as a study abroad student- it is the college you came from and where your grades go at the end of the semester. It is also the place you should check in with regularly. Advising season still happens when you are abroad! 

Ahem, back on course. I have wanderlust- and it won't be cured anytime soon. But I also have reality. And reality has always been there to keep my lofty dreams in check. I am looking at trying to find a job or a master's degree program that will take me back to a place like Limerick, a place where all of Europe is at your fingertips for an affordable price. (€10 Tuesday flights to London or Paris, yes please!) So I know it can be done, but it will take a little work. And if you want to travel abroad, Ireland is a great place for it. It feels a lot like home here (except for the coffee, but they're working on it.) 

Wanderlust is kinda fun. I have learned so much about myself from people I have met and my own forced realizations. I am the mom friend, I have a knack for languages, I can be bold and brave, I love finding new information in all forms, I am better at going with the flow than I thought, and I can budget, and the hardest realization: maybe it is okay to let others help sometimes. 

When I return to the US, I have a ton of summer trips I want to do as well as three other tasks I miss greatly; drive, drink good coffee, and work (earn money!). But I will miss my Wren House family and all the amazing, interesting, various people I have met at the University. 

-See you wandering later, Haleigh

Friday, April 15, 2016

What brings you joy?

Happy Friday everybody!

With all of the soul searching and self discovery I've been doing about myself lately has really made me think about what truly makes me happy.

I think that everyone has passions, whether big or small. Tonight I kinda wanted to fill you in on some of mine. I truly think that within a lifetime we form into all different kinds of people. We're always changing, growing, and bettering ourselves.

1. I love to help people. It could be something as small as holding the door open for the person behind me, or as big as saving someones life. Putting people before myself is something I have become very accustomed to doing, and I personally don't think that there's anything wrong with that.

2. Being outside in the sunshine brings so much joy into my life. I could hike mountains, walk on the beach, or simply enjoy the sunrise/sunset and never get sick of it. There is SO much beauty in the world around us. How lucky are we?!

3. Flowers. Have you ever looked at a bouquet of flowers and not had a smile on your face? There is something so simple about giving and receiving flowers, that brings you so much happiness.

4. I'm passionate about books. How neat is it that within a minute of reading we can transform ourselves into a totally different world. We are able to give the characters personalities, and go through what they're feeling first hand. It is such an incredible feeling to get lost in a great book.

5. The World is so big and beautiful with endless opportunities. Think about all the beautiful sites you've seen, and all of the places you have yet to go! What's the top place on your bucket list to travel? Can you pick just one? Go explore.

6. I've grown up watching my mom take breathtaking photographs. I think there's something so beautiful about a picture. Even though it's just a piece of paper, it can bring you back to the exact moment captured. You remember the way the breeze felt across your face, the smell of your sisters perfume, or maybe the way it felt when the love of your life held you in their arms.

Like I said before, I have so many things that I love.. and personally I think it's so important to talk about your passions with the people around you.

I hope you all had a perfect Friday filled with sunshine.

Love always,
Michaela

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Wardrobe update - Spring edition!


To say that I've been in a fashion slump for the past couple of months would be an understatement. If you've seen me out and about, my go-to outfit reccently has been VS leggings, a button up shirt, vest, and my black Nike Roshe Runs, or white Converse. Not that there's anything wrong with that… It's comfortable and practical... I am just tired of wearing the same five things over and over again. 

Being in Aruba wearing fun new outfits everyday of the week was great, and right up my alley! I absolutely love having a reason to dress up and look cute! Not that each day isn't a perfectly good excuse to look your best, I've just been in a rut with my outfit choices lately. 

What better way to say hello to a brand new season then a couple of fresh, new items for your wardrobe! I've been getting tons of inspiration from fashion blogs I religiously read, and finally bit the bullet, and went shopping! 

My shopping checklist: 
1. Dresses
2. Statement shoes
3. Boyfriend jeans

My first stop was Forever 21. Why? Everything is super affordable and they always, always, always have trendy pieces. You can't go wrong. Right off the bat I found probably over ten different things I wanted/needed to try on. My arms were overflowing with cute clothes. After spending almost a half an hour in the dressing room, I found two pieces I just had to have. 


Not only is this dress the exact stye I was looking for, it's so comfortable and the color/pattern is super flattering. I can't wait to pair this with long layered necklaces, and strappy sandals. AND to make it even better, it's less than $20.


I fell in love with this top the minute I tried it on. White shirts are my favorite, and you can never have enough. They go with just about anything, and never go out of style. The best part about this shirt is it accentuates your collar bones, and personally I LOVE that look. I'm going to pair this top with super dark wash jeans, and maybe some cute ankle booties. 

Unfortunately I wasn't successful with finding boyfriend jeans but I did find boyfriend shorts at Old Navy! I swear they're like the hidden gem of stores, and so underrated. Old Navy never fails to disappoint this girl! The shorts I picked up do run a bit big, so I suggest going down at least one size if not two. They're super comfy, and I think they'll be perfect for the upcoming spring weather. 

Last but not least I found the perfect pair of statement sandals at Target of all places! Brace yourselves. They're orange, bright orange. I cannot wait to wear these all season! Do yourself a favor and go buy these, right now! You will not regret it. They run true to size, and are basically the most comfortable sandals I've ever worn. 


Outfit of the day posts are coming your way, so get excited! I can't wait to style all of my new spring finds! Let me know what is on all of your fashion wish lists! 

Thank you for reading!
Love always, 
Michaela 

Thursday, April 7, 2016

1, 2, 3!

Rise and shine!

There's a lot of random different things I'd like to talk to all of my readers about today.

Number one:

So I'm going to toot my own horn for a minute here because I started this women's empowerment group on Facebook called Faith Over Fear a week ago, and this morning I woke up and there is over 700 women from all over the world in this group. How amazing is that? There are so many special stories I've read and so many seriously great connections that have already been made, it makes me feel on top of the world! This weeks goal was to get women from every single country invited into the group, and we are well on our way to making that happen! So please, please, please, tell your friends about it and get the word out there. I honestly think we are on the way to changing the world.

Number two:

Wow what a week for blog launches! It's been so incredible to read and get to know such astounding people.

My friend Adrianna just launched her blog this week. It's a beauty, fashion, lifestyle blog that is so awesome! I've gotten tons of information about different products, and all sorts of tips that I think any of you reading this could/would benefit from! Her blog is www.authenticallyadrianna.com and I really think you all should take the time out of your day to go show her some love and support!

Another friend of mine, Nora, is in the process of relaunching her blog, and from what she has told me I really think it's going to be tremendously successful. To make it even better, I am going to be a guest writer on her blog and have my own segment which is SO exciting! It is launching Sunday, April 10th so definitely save the date! Here's the link: thebasicbabes.com

Last but certainly not least, my friend Alexis! She is such a sweetheart, and is testing the waters of starting and creating her own blog. I personally can totally relate to her posts, and think that you all could too! Let her know how fabulous she's doing, and check out her blog. It's such a breath of fresh air! Here's the link to her blog: http://ambitionaftercoffee.blogspot.com

Number three:

I've been giving everything I've got into becoming the healthiest version of myself that I can be, both physically and mentally. Two things that have  really helped me stay on track is listening to motivational Podcasts and books while completing everyday tasks. Whether it's driving, cleaning, or getting ready for work I can almost promise that you'd find me listening to something fantastically uplifting. One Podcast I have really been loving is Katie Dalebout's the Wellness Wonderland. It's really inspiring to hear all of these super successful women talk about their passions, things that they have struggled through and overcome, and just their everyday lives. Another thing I've been LOVING doing is journaling. Just taking a break from your day to sit down and write whatever comes to mind, or about something that happened that day. Plus, later down the road your journal is something you'll always have to look back on to see how far you've come.

Along the lines of being healthy, I've been loving testing out and trying all sorts of different recipes. I have stumbled across my love for a good smoothie, and avocados! I've been  trying to eat a plant based diet, and haven't eaten meat at all this week which I've seen a drastic change in how my body looks and feels. That being said, if any of you have any healthy recipes please don't hesitate to share them with me!

Running used to be such a great outlet for me. I knew that no matter what I had to do that day, or what was stressing me out, running could always clear my head. Yesterday while talking to my good friend Rachel, she really reminded me of my passion for running and motivated me to give it another try. Last night after work I went to the gym, hopped on the treadmill and ran. Was my time great? No, I haven't ran in such a long time. But ,I didn't stop to take any breaks, and I really felt as though I pushed myself out of my comfort zone. One of my favorite people, Heather Batchelor, my Rise Up teacher always had this mug in her classroom that read, "life begins at the end of your comfort zone" and to this day, four years later I still use that as motivation. Isn't it funny how the smallest things can be your biggest motivators?!

Alright, I think I'm done ranting for now! I hope you all have a fabulous day. Do something for yourself today.

Thank you for reading!

Love always,
Michaela

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Perfectly Imperfect

Good morning to all of my beautiful readers! Happy Tuesday. 
I just wanted to warn you right off the bat that this post is very personal, and intense. But after all of the things I've read in the past week about SO many girls struggling with eating disorders I feel like this needs to be said. 
I wrote this blogpost two years ago:
How do you begin to explain something you’ve never understood yourself? How do you describe something that you swore you would only try one time? “It’s fine! I’m fine! I just wanted to try it,” biggest lie in the book. Especially when the person you’re lying to is yourself.
My dad told me tonight that his side of the family is susceptible to addiction. Due to our personalities, it would easy to become addicted to something. Whether it be drugs, alcohol, a feeling, or in my case, an eating disorder. All it took was the decision to try, and I was hooked.
Making myself throw up was a choice. It was something that always crossed my mind. I figured that this way, I could still eat whatever I wanted to and be thin. The day I finally caved was unforgettable. It was the beginning of summertime, and nobody was home. I was completely alone. Alone and scared. I walked into the downstairs bathroom, and locked the door behind me. I pinned my hair back, and leaned over the toilet. First I tried sticking a toothbrush down my throat because that’s what you see in all of the movies. It wasn’t working, so I shoved my finger down my throat. I hurt, and I gagged. But I figured if I got the results I knew I was supposed to, the pain would not matter. After a couple minutes I finally threw up. Little did I know how disgusting it would be. Once I stopped, I stood up, and looked into the mirror. A brown, chunky liquid coated my face and hands. I was ashamed as I washed my hands and wiped my mouth clean. My body was shaking, and I knew in that moment that I made a huge mistake.
Being bulimic is a choice when you first begin. But once you start throwing up daily it becomes an addiction, something you cannot stop. It’s not a choice anymore. You start feeling sick after eating the smallest of things. Knowing there’s food in your stomach, just sitting there, it’s repulsive. You feel disgusted with yourself for even thinking of eating. More and more you find yourself binging. Eating everything in sight, just because you know that in a few short minutes it will be going in the toilet, and you’ll never have to see it again. Everyday you feel guiltier. Things got to the point where I would make myself purge multiple times a day. Whether I had eaten a big bowl of ice cream, or a couple of almonds. It did not matter.
If you’ve ever had an eating disorder you understand the struggle you face on a daily basis. If you haven’t, consider yourself lucky. I wouldn’t wish it upon anybody, because it’s one of the hardest battles to face. Especially when you’re facing it alone. I could not bear to tell anybody. I couldn’t put that pain on anybody else’s shoulders. It changes you. Not only physically, but mentally. Some days you’ll walk around with broken blood vessels around your eyes from throwing up so hard the night before. Some days that faint smell of vomit will follow you everywhere you go. Some days you’ll feel so disgusted with yourself you won’t be able to get out of bed.
Deciding to become healthy again was something I contemplated for a while. I didn’t know if it was something I could fight by myself. Bulimia had taken over my life. It was a monster, and knowing I had created this monster broke me. Was I ready to let it go? No. But, I knew that if I wanted take control of my life again it was something that I needed to stop all together. Recovery was the only thing that was going to let me accomplish my dreams.
A year later I can officially say that I am better. I am healthy, and I no longer live with the constant urge to make myself throw up. I chose to eat healthy, and I chose to better myself. I have cut out the negativity, and day by day work to make myself a happier, stronger person. I can’t say that the thought of throwing up has not crossed my mind, because then I’d be flat out lying. I’ve thought about going back to my old ways, but then all of that pain would have been for nothing. I was sick, and nursing myself back to health was one of the hardest task’s I’ve ever completed.
Having an eating disorder was something that I brought upon myself. I chose to stick my finger down my throat. Nobody made me do it. Do I wish it never happened? Everyday. But I know that if I hadn’t fought through that, I wouldn’t even be half of the person I am today. I wouldn’t know when to say, “enough is enough.” I wouldn’t know how to put myself first. Today, I chose to be happy. I chose to accept who I am. Can you?
Alright, back to the present. Honestly if I were to tell you that I have not relapsed or used behaviors since writing the initial post two years ago I would be flat out lying. I truly believe that having an eating disorder is something that sticks with you for life. Does it define me? Absolutely not. Did I become healthy again? Yes but I had to want it. It is something that you'll live with and fight with daily. You NEED food to survive. You need to eat in order to be healthy. I read this quote yesterday that really resonated with me. Somebody wrote over a nutrition label, "Your body needs to be nourished and nothing is shameful about that." There are way to many people dealing with this issue every single day. 8 million Americans are struggling with an eating disorder at this moment, that number needs to shrink drastically. If you or somebody you know is battling please reach out, get help. There are so many people who will have your back. It's time to become healthy again. Love yourself, and love your body. As one of my best friends Heather told me the other day, "You are perfectly imperfect".

Thank you for reading!
Love always,
Michaela 

Monday, April 4, 2016

Monday morning update!

Hey everyone! 

So sorry for the lack of posts in the past week or so! I'm going to completely transparent with all of you and say that the past week has been extremely tough for me. There's been so much going on not only in my everyday life, but in my head. Do you ever feel like you're trapped in your mind and your thoughts? That's been me. This past week I've made some very poor choices. But I'm trying so, so, so hard to pick myself up, and remember that it is only human to fall down sometimes. 

On a more positive note, I started this Facebook group called Faith Over Fear. For so long now I've been thinking to myself, it is just as easy to be genuinely kind to others than it is to be hateful and rude. Why are we wasting our energy tearing others down when we can just as easily help them up? With that in mind I created this group for young women to help spread positivity in their everyday lives, and to empower and support one another. I think it will be a great way to not only create friendships, but to provide a place for them to go to get constant motivation and inspiration. From the initial 30 group members that I invited, we now have over 500 women from all over the world, which I personally think is simply amazing. It baffles my mind that in less then a week I've started this constant support system with young women as far away as Germany, Australia, Ireland, and as close as right down the street. 

I'm sorry for such a random post, but I felt like I owed my readers an explanation as to why I've been so MIA. 

I hope you all have a fabulous Monday!
Thank you for reading!

Love always,
Michaela 

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